lonely...

you won't know how it feels..
you won't understand..
you might think i'm crazy..
you will never understand me..
you don't know how it feels to be in my shoe..
you might think i'm happy

but...

you will never see happiness in my eyes..


i tried my very best to fit in..
but i guess i'm still lonely..

i tried my very best not to talk or sing..
but i guess it's not enough..

i tried to be someone i'm not..
but i guess i'm lying to myself..

the truth hurts.. it really does.. but it's still the truth..
you can't change it no matter what..

when i sang the song "lonely", i really mean it..
it's literaly lonely.. lonely..

it's not that no one is sitting beside me..
it's not that no one will hear me sing..
it's not that no one is patient enough..
it's not that no one will understand me..

maybe it's my fault to be so loud..
maybe it's my fault to be so annoying..
maybe it's my fault for singing too much..
maybe it's my fault for being lame..


people wants me to sew my mouth..
people wants me to glue it..
people wants me to slit off my throat..
people wants me to SHUT UP..



i am.. just.. ben..

tick...